I've got Peace, but I ain't got no Patience!

Can it really be almost 2013??  Two more days and yet another year begins.  The past few months have been busy.  We have purposly taken the past few months to really hone back into each other and our home since moving on from our baby disappointment back in October.  The one thing we said we were going to do if that specific situation didn't work out was what anyone would want to do.  GO TO DISNEYLAND!!  Such a great 3 day get away.  A time of fun and just being together.  Nothing better than the happiest place on earth right??

Halloween came and went.  We enjoyed a bit of dress up as dominoe's.  It was cheesy but all we could come up with at the last minute.  HA!  Even Colby got into the act.

The rest of this year has been spent doing a few household things that we have been needing to do for quite some time.  We went to Ikea and bought their Billy Bookcases and Jeff did an amazing job of putting crown molding around them to make them look beautiful.  We got the idea off of ikeahack.com.  Such a great website. This entertainment center and bookshelf system was so needed in our small house.  Yeah for a place to finally put our books!!!

Even though we have done a great job of staying busy I do have to say that being back in the game of waiting for our baby has it's hard times.  It's so weird because I feel as if I have complete and utter peace that God has His perfect timing picked out for our little child to join our family.  But I have ZERO patience for it.  Seems an odd place to walk having peace yet a lack of patience.  I still question God and His timing but I continue to want nothing more than for this whole thing to be orchestrated by Him. 

Going through yet another holiday season yearning for our little family seemed empty and meaningless.  Don't get me wrong, I love spending time with jeff and my mom and our amazing friends.  I love doing things to make them feel special.  But it's another year of not being able to experience the joy, beauty and awe of Christmas through our little child's eyes.

We look to 2013 as the year this will finally happen.  But whatever may come I strive to learn and realize and feel in the depths of my being that God is Good.  He is Good in every situation and circumstance.  He is Good in my life.  I want to know God like I have never known Him before.  To try to not focus so much on what I do not have, but focus on God and His Goodness!!!!