Twists and Turns

The past 4 months have been crazy for us.  On June 15th we received a phone call from a birth mom who was very interested in us for potentially adopting her baby girl.  She was due on October 2nd.  We had many good conversations and officially "matched" with her a few weeks later.  The term "matching" in adoption world means that she and us committed to each other to move forward in adopting her baby.  We were taken down off of our adoption agency's website and were no longer able to be viewed by other potential birth mom's.  We met with her in person and all of us came up with a contact agreement of how often we would all see each other after the baby was born.  This was all very exciting to us and we immediately came home and started preparing our little one's bedroom.  Could not believe we were finally at this point. 

The next few months have been busy with preparations.  We have had so much fun doing all of the things first time parents do.  We started watching videos on how to care for a newborn, we got our whooping cough vaccines, started buying a few little girl dresses and clothes and spent time with family and friends who were equally as excited to meet our sweet little baby girl.

The baby was finally born on October 7th early in the morning.  We got the news a few hours later that our birth mom had changed her mind and would not be placing.  Wow!  Such a heartbreak for us.  Even though we knew this was a very real possibility for us the news was still hard to take.  We had the car packed and ready to go to the hospital at any moment. 

But God was taking care of us that day.  All day long He was showing us His love through the things we read, a sermon we watched and the friends and family who visited, texted and emailed us their words of encouragement.  We know even more than we knew before that God has His timing picked out for us and our sweet little baby.  It WILL happen.  Our time will come to finally parent a little life.  While it can be so stinkin hard to wait and be patient I know without a doubt that I don't want this to happen a moment sooner than God has ordained. 

Our prayers continue to go out to the birth mom and her beautiful little baby that was just born.  We invested 4 months into praying for them and developed a deep love.  We know we were in their lives for a reason.  We may never know that reason but we don't need to know.  God does.